Thursday, January 17, 2013

Its see you later.....not goodbye

When people say that death isn't easy, they are right. It is the hardest thing that you can deal with a cope with. Last month we said goodbye to the most wonderful man, my Poppaw. I knew that he was not doing well, but I had no idea we would loose him so quickly. When I received the news I didn't know what to think. I was mad, hurt, sad, happy, relived all in one. I knew that he would finally be with his one true love, my grandma, celebrating in heaven. However, this meant he would not be here anymore. I was so mad that I didn't get to say goodbye and give him one last hug and kiss. Even though I didn't get to say goodbye, I knew in my heart all of the time we spent together will never be forgotten. 

I made sure to FaceTime with him weekly while I was away, or call him to tell him that I loved him. We had so many wonderful memories together that I cherish in my heart. This past summer Poppaw would ask me every Tuesday morning, " Hey do you want to go salin' this weekend?" Of course my answer was always yes. Every Friday and Saturday morning we would get up hop in the Trooper, and drive for what seemed like hours going from garage sale to garage sale. We would get out and he would know right away if it was going to be a good sale or not, and every single time he was right! We would walk around the sale probably 5 times and always find something new. He was always looking for new treasures for the wedding, and come up with new ideas for me. The treasures that he found me seem like a million dollars in my eyes.

The stories we exchanged and the memories that we created from these mornings will be something I will never forget. Poppaw had become a man who I could talk to about anything, and he would have advice or something to say back. I will miss our garage salin' mornings, but I know he will always be with me. I know that when I walk down that isle, when I start a family one day he will be there. I love you Poppaw, this isn't goodbye its just see you later
{Poppaw & I at age 7 Christmas time}
{Poppaw & I @ my college graduation}
{Mommaw & Poppaw}

{Poppaw & his girls @ the ball field}



New semester

Well back to school I go! After a wonderful break at home with family & friends I am back in TN. My holiday break was wonderful, getting to be with my family and being home. There is no place like it! I had many dates with momma, and girl nights with the besties. It went fast but I enjoyed every minute of it. 
This semester I started a new job, which get this....PAYS FOR SCHOOL! WOW! I am so blessed in so many ways, but to have my Masters paid for was a blessing in disguise.  I am excited for the start of a new semester and new year! 
This year brings many fun and exciting things for my fiance' and I. Wedding planning is still coming along, but its fun taking our time and enjoying being engaged. We are still keeping a open mind because of the unknown ahead for both of us. I am looking forward to sharing the wedding planning progress with y'all.